A whole basket of goodies.

Oh hello there.

This is just a random blog for the sake of blogging because it's early for me but I couldn't sleep for some reason, which is one of the things I plan on discussing below.

I'll start off with the Deb. Oh my god.
It's in less than a week and I'm so nervous it isn't funny. I have to go get my suit + still learn the dances. And to make things harder, I just realised no one will be here to take me to get my suit before thursday. Yay. BUS x 23984623. I'm excited though, I plan on going out there and just really getting into and and making a fool of myself. And I will feel sorry for those people who are like, all serious and shit. It's like DUDE CHILL, IT'S JUST THE DEB. :)

Also, I have realised I'm really emotionally fucked up? Like, I'll really like someone. And I'll lead them on and on and on, and we'll get into it and shit and then when it's time to commit I push them away and have a massive cry how I lost them? At my year 11 Retreat we had this big talk thing, and I was asked to get up infront of the year level and discuss how someone had hurt me and how it had affected me to this very day. So I spoke about how my Dad left and now I find it hard trusting people and letting people in. I'm so scared that the people I love are going to hurt me, so I just never let people get close enough to do so. And whats even worse is that all the people that I have let in, still hurt me one way or another. I'm so fucking fragile it's really embarassing to be honest. But whaaaaaaaatevs.

Now I'm going to speak about the fact that I really miss my family in Adelaide. I think I might move there when I finish school, purely so I can just like, visit my siblings and cousins all the time. My Mums side of the family is amazing, and they are the most awesome bunch of people I have ever met. And I miss them allllll the time. My visits there are always ones to remember, and I'm going to miss these days when I'm like 40 and can't just go stay at my Aunties and stay up all night with my cousins.

Anyway. Thats all.

And yes, I think you've realised that I've bullshitted on about little things just to kind of cover up the middle paragraph? Hahahaha..

EDIT: I miss Steb, Molly, Amber & Jaime like mad.. :(

I am Andy.

MAD.

I'm so furious at the moment!
I'm so furious, it's unbelievable.

Why can't people just be normal?
Why do people feel the need to fuck around with others?
Try and do the best for the people you love..
Don't go putting yourself fucking first, think about what the fuck you're doing before you go and create a situation.

And I'm really confused at the moment about this laaarvely girl I like quite a bit.
Everything just fucked up in a matter of 3 seconds today, my heart just dropped.

FUCK EVERYTHING.

The strange boost juice girl.

Not too long ago, I went to the plaza with my friends Kayt and Gemma. We decided to go to boost juice. This is where I met one of the strangest people of all time. She was wide eye'd and seemed very detached from reality, as if she were constantly high. She honestly, freaked me out a little bit. But here is how my experience went with the Boost Juice Girl from mine and Kayts point of view, shortly after getting my drink..

"Hello, welcome to boost juice, how may I help you? This is what i call the "Ordering" stage. This is where you read the signs clearly shown here to my left, right and above me. on these boards, there are lists of different juices you can purchase. once you have made your decision, you open your mouth and use your words to tell me which one you would like and in which size. once this decision has been made, i will type it into the computer and ask for your name. now, don't feel in danger, i'm not interested on asking you out on friday night - although i'd quite enjoy it - it is simply used so you know when your order is ready."

"...can i please have a large king william choc..."

"as you can see, i am now typing your order into the computer. this involves the movement of my hands and fingers interacting with this here computer. may i have your name please?"

"Errr, andy."

"Order stage is now complete. Now entering the "Payment" stage.

It is now time for payment. this is where you will pay me, the recipient, the exact cost of the boost juice in which you just ordered. here, you place your hand into your pocket or bag and reveal your wallet. you then will take money from it and pass it to me, where i will place my hand palm facing up for you to drop the money onto it. if any change is required, i will then put the coins or notes in which you have just paid into the till and calculate how much i am to repay you. i then will take this repayment from the till and place it into your palm, which will hopefully be facing up and allow me to place the change into your possesion. That is the end of the Payment stage.

I'm now begining what I call the 'making the smoothie' stage. This is where all ingridients, whether it may be fruits or milk or ice, into a blender and then turn it on to mix it up. Here I am placing the ingridients into the blender. Now i will walk over to the blender machine, set it down into the blender machine, and press the on button. The on button sparks a trigger which then spins the blades, dicing and mixing in all ingridients to create a lovely smoothie. Now i'm going to grab a cup, pour in the liquid and place a lid on top firmly so it will not fall off. Here is "Andy's Order"

"im just going to go over and get my.. oh, my bags caught"

"*HER EARS PRICK* CAN'T GET TO THE JUICE? SOMEONE NEEDS MY HELP. *GRABS BOOST JUICE AND DIVES OVER COUNTER.* OKAY. I'm going to help you on how to stand up. first of all, relax. standing up requires little effort, but if stressed, can become rather difficult. once comfortable, place your feet firlmy on the ground, evenly apart. then move your body weight forward, shifting your centre of gravity from the chair to your feet. slowly straighten out your knees and prepare to take the weight of your body. once your knees are straight, you've successfully stood up. here is your juice. i'm now commencing the passing over of your boost juice. this is when you, the recipient, places your palms on either side of the boost juice cup and recieves it from me. then once i have passed it to you, you may drink it whenever you like."

"Um, thaaanks?"

I am Andy.

Laaaarve.

Oh haaaaaay!

I hate liking people. In the sense of friends, as well as more than friends.
It's just going to fuck shit up if I do anything about anything.
So I'm going to keep quiet I guess.
Eh, that's all.

KBYE.

Friends.

Why hello there blog readers and what not.

My blog posting has come to it's lowest of all time! Shocking.
I've been busy with school and exams, and hanging out with my friends.
Lately I've been struck with a serious illness..

Nostaliga.
(nos·tal·gi·a
1. A bittersweet longing for things, persons, or situations of the past.
2. The condition of being homesick; homesickness.)

I just wanted to make a post about all my friends in general, cause I know that all those individual posts never came.

First of all, my time in Melbourne was amazing. It was full of amazing people and amazing memories I'll never forget. I'll always remember those days at school, sitting in our own corner, bashing up little kids and jumping on the poles, then that night we'd all go to ones house and dress up, or make a cubby, make a soap opera or watch disney movies until I went delirious from sleep deprivation. Everyday I think of those times and really appreciate what I had, and realise that because of my actions, I'm now missing out on them. Everytime a group of photos from a party go up and I see everyone there having a good time, I can't help but feel jealous of what I'm missing out on. For those people who made a direct impact on my life, and you know who you are, I truly appreciate every single moment I spent with you, and hopefully, plenty more will come in which I can then appreciate. I'm sorry for leaving so abruptly and leaving pre-made plans like a ship wreck, i.e. the Deb, but it was unintentional and I will make it up to you. Me living so far away has put quite a strain on my relationships, from my point of view anyway, and when I come down to visit, I don't mean to be a burden. I have minimal places to stay and want to spend multiple nights at your house, and I understand it can be hard, and for that, I'm sorry too. I don't want ot make having me as a friend a strain on everything, but even spending a few hours with you, although would be slightly heartbreaking when I leave, is worth it in every way possible. I love you all so much.

Now onto Wodonga. I haven't been here very long, but I can tell I've made some friends for life. I'm glad I got the chance to come here and meet so many more wonderful people. You've made the transition so much easier for me by how accepting everyone has been. Every weekend I have some where to go and someone to see, and I feel really welcomed, like I'm one of the group. Lunch times are just the best, sitting by E block or the front lawn, being absolute tards alllll the time. I've met such a micture of people who just constantly make me smile, and it makes me happy to come to school. You all already mean so much to me.

Anyway. Just felt like being all emotional and shit, so yeah.

I am Andy.

currently listening to:
Rediscover - I will forget you.
currently watching:
livelavalive on youtube!
favourite thing atm:
my new jumper (L)

my little country town.

alot of time has passed since my first blog, and although i'm still struggling to adapt to the cultural and social differences that seperate the city from this country town, im begining to really love this place.

not because of it's wonderous things to do but because i have met alot of wonderful people. things have been looking up very much so for me here, and although melbourne will always be my home, and i'll be moving back there soon, being here right now isn't so bad.

thats all i really wanted to update you on.

I am Andy.

intolerance.

ah it's been a while, and my posting has become close to obsolete. this would probably be because of the high importance of schooling at the moment, with a SAC just passed on wednesday for my year 12 subject, Legal Studies.

but here i am again, ridding of everything on my chest, and by that, i mean problems and nothing more.

first off, im tired of myself. i don't know if it is just me, but i'm extremly impatient and can hardly tolerate anyone these days. i see flaws in everyone and everything, and question why things happen.

one thing that has been on my mind, is whenever i have conversations with certain people, it seems they think it is a one way street. they tell me all about themselves and the stories they have to share, but when i begin to speak, it becomes a simple "cool.. i have to go now." why can't you just sit down and shut the fuck up for a few seconds of your life and listen to me, it's the least you could do after i have listened to your pathtic, boring stories which weren't even funny. take a few moments out of your pathetic life, and think about the people around you. they are being considerate listening to you, listen to them..

also, although i have sorted some things out with this person, i'd like to express my concern. please note, they are being used as a recent example, seeing as this happens regularly. just because i made a few remarks about you to your face, in a joking manner, does not mean you can throw away a relationship whenever you like. relationships are something you make and they stay or go, you can't decide, whenever you like it, that it exists or not, we're friends or not friends, it's simple. you can't plan that you're going to ignore me for a certain amount of days and then speak to me after that certain amount of days. during those days, you caused me 10 x the amount of stress i gave you to make you ignore me, yet i'm the one who kept calling you through it all, having my calls rejected. i'm the one who wanted to sort it out, and i'm the one who eventually did sort it out, one way or another.

eh, that is all.

oh, and check out Death Note. possibly my favourite anime ever, considering i hate anime. i just finished watching the series.. my life is empty as of now, hahaha.

I am Andy.